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I don't know what I'm looking for
Maybe nothing and no one at all
'Cause then I have to remember my past
Heartbreaks made of my misakes
Reasons for all my lonely seasons

No one ever really knows anyone anyway

Only a Dream

You were just one of those dreams
The kind where you just feel
The happiest you've ever felt in your whole life

And then the alarm of reality rang

unfinished

If I could just find my voice
Would I find the strength to use it
Way out loud to the world
Would I yell and shout my heart or soul
Whichever's left, too black for the wolves

Undecided

I wanted to defeat him
or the act itself
Conquer them as they had conquered me
Use them for my personal gain
To prove they hadn't used me for thiers
Beaten me, and were under my control

Loose as the definitions of right, will, and love
Cheap as my shopping list
Easy as walking down a flight of stairs
I will... not decide

So Long

So long I've been waiting
So long I've been praying
So long you've been hiding or biding or gone

So long I've been breathing
So long as your not leaving
So long you keep laying and weighing me down

So long I've been searching
So long I've been fruitless
So long you've been sighing and buying more time

So long I've been holding on
So long you've been moving on
So long we've been sifting and drifting apart

So long I've been sighing
So long I've been crying
So long you've adored then ignored me once more

So long I've been wishing
So long we've been kissing
So long as I don't have to say this again

So long

Known

I looked upon a pane of glass
Window to the outside world
Freshly falling snow blows over
Gifts each branch the heavy weight of beauty

But this night I focused on the glass
Glow of twinkling lights just hung
Relieved to see no strangers there,
I breathed hot breath a loud, loud sigh

Yes, I recognized her well
Beautiful in her own flawed way
O welcome my eyes found her sight
O welcome beauty in flaws

O player in games, Giver in time
Dreamer in life, dancer in dreams
Keeper in youth, Singer in song
Maker of trouble, taker of time

O shadowed in sun, feeler of warmth
Hunger in hope, hoper in future
Wanter in love, believer in little
Learner in wrong, stronger in writing,

O knocker on doors, opener of minds
Runner in fall, faller in love
Stranger in whiles, reflector in glass
O welcome, welcome, knower of me

Let the Snow Fall

Let the snow fall
To cover our mistakes
Mask the sinful earth
In it's white purity
Yes, let the snow fall