Don't tell me

Don't tell me I can't be
Don't tell me God looks down on me
Don't tell me that trees don't know things
Don't tell me that ocean's not listening


Don't tell me my teddy bear don't care
Don't tell me there are no toxins in the air
and Please Don't tell me it never rains like in the movies

Forever's all I've mentioned
but what is my intention
I want a promise for security

So lost in you
I'm losing myself
The nightmares don't stop

Is this all make believe? What's believe?

I need a breakdown, a take down a shut down
a shut up a get up and go down
look around see and sound
your voice... haunts me

Easter

I hope you know there were no stars before you
I'd look up, streetlights blocked my view
Late Easter sunday took me out at night
Even clouds couldn't hide the moonlight's bright
I was holding my breath while you were holding my hand
Making scattered footprints in the dirty sand
The warmth of your arms and the wind in my hair
The mud on my jeans, I'd forgotten to care
How could we know as the night unfurled
You would give me the sky and I would make you the world

Idle Lover

My lordship speaks perilous poison if he wilt not forswear love
I shalt ne'er slander grace vouchsafe fortune with your vow
Methinks your manner quenches winter's breast
wherefore vehemence foul dost warrant woe
Were it you who would seek thee only a maiden woman
then loath in thy mischance of my wicked torment
Hence I will ask question of myself as a lady
and perchance envy yon wanton goblet or ghostly bosom
Alas, every death doth dream through mortal measure
Sanctify nothing. Tempt me from melancholy night.
Loathsome farewell, yield.

a compilation by A.M. Brown and Page Carriveau

Surrenderer

Something warm smoothes my skin
Was it you or summer sun?
I'm near the place where we begin
What is it we've begun?
I trust you'll put your arms around
Whether tears or laughter flow
A realization quite profound
I'm not sure how I know
When disbelief opens my mouth
You fill it with your kiss
Yet again I'm heading south
And it's you I've come to miss
I niether lead nor follow
Some unneccessary pull
And when I'm feeling hollow
You're there to make me full
And when you're over me
I feel our weight combine
Heavy breaths gently set free
Which is yours? Which is mine?
A past life shivered cold
Numbed me as pretender
Through you, I'm made bold
In love, I surrender

So Tired, This Body's Mind

So tired, this body's mind
Only an empty bed calls it
To sleep unsounded but with toys
Even my child's heart longs for more
Than a restless night awaiting undisturbed
No comfort's breath to rise and fall
It's fallen so away
And I've fallen here
Upon this slab of down's soft, I sink
In cradled blankets mangled
But pause, and think of all the world
Only to more lonely grow
I'll fing no solace this night

Butterflies

A world where butterflies

As a creature and a feeling

Are trampled an supressed

A world where man cannot love fellow man

Without being spat upon by man

Angered by his own shallow fears

A world where hunger eats a people

And love spreads deadly disease

Aid goes undone by the wealthy and plastic

A world where God is feared

Unknown, blamed, and held sacred

Our mute prayers unanswered to our deaf ears

A world where quality and quantity are confused

Where cheapness overpowers brotherhood

And truth is hidden more than unknown

Wake up I call to this world

From visions of grandeur

The nightmares are real and I...

I still need the butterflies!

Now that I know the cold
From lack of your hands
How can I ask for your body heat again?
Knowing still that the season demands
that I let you remove it again... again

I may flaunt what you want
But you need my permission Before you proposition
So change your position Or you'll face my opposition

Cause it seems to me
That immaturity Is your specialty
Don't try spreading your seed Anywhere in my vaccinity
Best to save your energy
Cause if you get with me You're gonna need it baby

Never Made Love

I've been on my knees
Been begged, "Baby please"
Been siezed and squeezed
And teased and eased
I've heard all your sleeze
And I aim to please
But I can't appease
All of these "Come to me's"

I've had my hands kissed
Been told I was missed
In my ears hissed
Had a hot hot tryst
Glistened with mist
Made a counting list
Made a hollow fist
I think you get the gist

But I've never made love

I've been made to moan
Changed my tone
Waited by the phone
Heard the radio crone
And the talk shows drone
Been shown, on loan
Had my oats sewn
And chilled to the bone

I've danced in the rain
Parked at Lover's Lane
Kissed a Dane
Ran fingers through mane
Been made insane
Refused to feign
Tried to wane
Felt the pain

But I've never made love

Behind closed doors
Don't ask for more
Cause as the sandy shore
Is like the ocean floor
So's the hollow bore
Of a body's core
That they tore
And left me sore

I've read the text
I've been perplexed
I've been messed
And made real stressed
I've been exed and vexed
Pressed and carressed
And you know what comes next
Although I've had sex

I've never made love
Oh I've never made love

She's Got No Faith in Spring

Pressed flowers in all her books
Hesitation with all her looks
Finds need to save the bloom
Before it meets its doom
A beauty so undeserved
Is best quickly preserved
Before its course is run
And life makes it undone
Sure, the colors fade
From what God had made
Keep the memory pure
Is, to her, allure
Upon winter's icy breath
Finds shelter amidst the death
No calm after the storm
No reaching out for warm
Not one to plant a seed
It will only be a weed
She won't wait for birds to sing
She's got no faith in spring

Real

I'm glad it hurt
'cause now I know
I'm not so hardened
not so hollow

The world sees now
Caring as flaw
Missing love
Feelings raw

But pleasures are not
for those who seek
Fallen tears
are not of the weak

And I'm glad it hurt
Glad I still bleed
Not so hollow
as I once believed

List

I'll add your name to the list
of those too worried and weak
they who after our tryst
have forgotten how to speak
Don't worry your head
I'll let you lie in your bed
I'll just add your name to the list

Then you can add my sigh
to that list you bare
unlike you it doesn't lie
of weights your bed has felt you share
maybe you forgot my name
like I forgot to keep me tame
oh, you can add my sighs

we could set our lists to burn
from fire in our eyes
your apathy I forever learn
but I’ll forget your lies
while their names turn to ash
follow you to bed and clash
let’s set our lists to burn

yet come the ghosts of those names
on your lists and mine
risen ashes from the flames
in forgotten memory entwined
bedding every haunted hour
lying no longer has power
yet come the ghosts of names

I can only try to forget
No more lies to those loved and love back
Adding to the list of regret
relying too much on forgivness and slack
Your name in my head
My soul in your bed
I can only try to foget